There is bliss in the after too. From the gorgeous, dream house I find myself in, to the new and old friends welcoming me, Brisbane has proven to be just right...
There are new dreams and opportunities beginning to bloom - and I wonder how I got so incredibly, incredibly lucky.
There are still days when the darkness and panic overwhelms me. But I know now, that is always darkest before the dawn, and I am getting better at letting go. Embracing the the happiness instead of fearing it.
I wander aimlessly around this new city, exploring, learning, growing. There is always some new spot to discover, a new experience right around the corner.
But most of all, I'm forgiving myself for past mistakes, and trying to loose the ties of guilt. And I'm finally discovering me. And I like her. A lot.
There will be a time when you believe everything is finished.
That will be the beginning.